Thursday, June 30, 2011

Missing...

I remember writing in at the end of my first term. We had just got done with our Finance exam as i recall, and there was just relief flooding through me at the prospect of having a well-deserved break. This time it is different. I feel sad knowing that i cannot get back what i just left behind. I don't really want to go to Chennai now. But then again, i do want to see my girlfriend, my parents and my brother again. Mixed emotions. Sigh.

21st of June. The exam was over by 1 PM. There was a huge party at Uran looming over us, and I had completely forgotten about having to part with my friends in a day or two. The party turned out to be great - lovely place , great weather, the Fish Pond, the drinks with Nabs and Sumeet, it was all too good....
Imran and Pallavi are just the most generous and caring people I've ever met. Seriously.

22nd of June - Pravesh had to leave. It suddenly hit me in my stomach that I needed to be somewhere else at the moment. I had someone waiting for me in Chennai, but somehow my mind refused to accept this. I had no ticket either. There was another party that night at WTF after our team won the Prestige Cup. Was awesome seeing everyone having a ball..celebrating...I didnt really drink that night. I don't know why. I didn't enjoy the music which i would have loved on any other night.

23rd of June - We were at Cafe Montegar, Colaba. Great food. Was soaking up the atmosphere when again i felt like i needed to be in Chennai. I had the chance to book my flight ticket but i didnt. We got back home quite late and then had dinner at On the Rocks. Saw the ship stranded on the Juhu beach. Evin was leaving the next day. Looked like he really wanted to though. I slept quite late that day. Around 4 AM. I seemed kind of lost in my own little world.

24th of June - Went for my Schengen visa submission in the morning. Took the wrong train back and landed up in Andheri East. Then got dressed and headed straight back out for Moin's wedding in Navy Nagar, Colaba. Quite a stunning place it turned out to be. Everyone were looking brilliant. The girls, the couple, my friends. Then there was the amazing food as well. Took a last few pictures with the gang. Had a drink over at Rontu Basu's place - then headed right back to the hostel. Most of the guys had left by then. It wasn't a pretty sight.

25th of June - Harshad and I woke up at 12 o clock. The only other people in the hostel were Ganesh, Nabila, Ishu and Prashanth(who was leaving as well). We had lunch at Vrindhavan and sent off Prashanth before getting back into a state of pure dullness and boredom. Nabs and Rane were having a long chat about careers and life going forward. He really makes sense Harshad. Kudos to you man. I only then happened to read his FB post which said "Machi and I keeping the hostel safe" or something to that extent. It made a lot of sense what he was trying to say. The hostel felt so much like home. And we both didnt want to forget that. We finally landed up at Raj Palace for a final round of drinks and dinner - all the while talking about life, love and other fucked up things. Slept as soon as we hit hostel.

26th of June - Last day. It was here finally. It made me sick. I hadn't talked to Sri for quite a while. I don't know why but I just could not get myself to talk to her. This time it was just Harshad, Nabs and I in the hostel. Sattu and Ash came in at around 11 and it felt lovely seeing them. But that moment of bliss was short-lived. I noticed i was talking very little - even to my own low standards. Harshad and I started packing soon after. His body language was speaking volumes. It was quite evident he didn't want to go anywhere. But being alone in the hostel was going to be something worse. So it was time to go. I left hostel at around 6. I'm going to be seeing the Schuligans in a month. But it will never be the same. I was so wishing that Nabs was a part of Schulich. I'm going to miss her the most.

Am on the flight now. Half an hour from Chennai. Home sweet home. I'm happy.

Lesson Learned : Don't whine too much. Just stfu and get on in life.